Been down in dumps-needed to be spanked

What can I say I have been bad, haven't been keeping up with my updates on getting down to porn weight. I was having a few days where I was feeling a bit down. When a fat guy (me)  feels down he turns to food for comfort, a pick me up. I'm not going to get into the deal tails that lead to feeling down in the dumps. I will tell you, that it did lead to eating to feel better, which is very wrong. Because no food out there can really make you feel better (not even hot fudge sundae). I didn't go for the sweets, I stuffed myself with the same food I've been eating along. Except for I went on a bit of bender for 'french fries'.  I started the morning out good, Starbucks for that 'first cup of the day', the banana and sometimes the cheesy bagel/cream cheese. But it was the nights I was falling down. Two nights ago I went for a avocado, bacon double cheese burger on sour dough, which should have been it, but feeling the way I did; I didn't care, I order up a large French fries.  The next night I had three flaco-tacos but again didn't stop there I order up the home style fries. As for last night I didn't do myself any favors either. It was bread sticks (Red Devil makes these delicious bread sticks by cooking up pizza dough with only some garlic butter and melted cheese, then cut it up into sticks) and five links of sausage with red Italian sauce. I ate all the bread sticks and two of the links. I was stuff and headed on my way to gaining back my weight I've been losing, when I finely realized what the fuck I was doing to myself. Might say I stop in the neck-of-time. Per the scale I put on three pound, which now I got re-lose. I don't know what alarm went off in my head but I'm glad it did. I'm glad I didn't go all hog wild with hot fudge sundaes or cookies and cakes. I'm back to cutting down my portion and stopping when I feel full not stuffed. As for today I pedaled my ass and laptop over to Starbucks for 'cup of java', Chiquita Banana and cheesy bagel/cream cheese. Between banana and bagel I did some writing on my script. Come back to my flop, did more writing on script; for the last meal of the day I had leftovers the 3 sausage link. I feel full but not stuff. As for my frame of mind, its better. I know there's going to be days when I'm feeling down in the dumps, those are the days I have to fight harder to keep my course on getting down to my porn weight.