Been down in dumps-needed to be spanked

What can I say I have been bad, haven't been keeping up with my updates on getting down to porn weight. I was having a few days where I was feeling a bit down. When a fat guy (me)  feels down he turns to food for comfort, a pick me up. I'm not going to get into the deal tails that lead to feeling down in the dumps. I will tell you, that it did lead to eating to feel better, which is very wrong. Because no food out there can really make you feel better (not even hot fudge sundae). I didn't go for the sweets, I stuffed myself with the same food I've been eating along. Except for I went on a bit of bender for 'french fries'.  I started the morning out good, Starbucks for that 'first cup of the day', the banana and sometimes the cheesy bagel/cream cheese. But it was the nights I was falling down. Two nights ago I went for a avocado, bacon double cheese burger on sour dough, which should have been it, but feeling the way I did; I didn't care, I order up a large French fries.  The next night I had three flaco-tacos but again didn't stop there I order up the home style fries. As for last night I didn't do myself any favors either. It was bread sticks (Red Devil makes these delicious bread sticks by cooking up pizza dough with only some garlic butter and melted cheese, then cut it up into sticks) and five links of sausage with red Italian sauce. I ate all the bread sticks and two of the links. I was stuff and headed on my way to gaining back my weight I've been losing, when I finely realized what the fuck I was doing to myself. Might say I stop in the neck-of-time. Per the scale I put on three pound, which now I got re-lose. I don't know what alarm went off in my head but I'm glad it did. I'm glad I didn't go all hog wild with hot fudge sundaes or cookies and cakes. I'm back to cutting down my portion and stopping when I feel full not stuffed. As for today I pedaled my ass and laptop over to Starbucks for 'cup of java', Chiquita Banana and cheesy bagel/cream cheese. Between banana and bagel I did some writing on my script. Come back to my flop, did more writing on script; for the last meal of the day I had leftovers the 3 sausage link. I feel full but not stuff. As for my frame of mind, its better. I know there's going to be days when I'm feeling down in the dumps, those are the days I have to fight harder to keep my course on getting down to my porn weight.

Slipping away...

Today I'm feeling a bit on the downside... like a dream or goal is slipping away... like the more you try to squeeze it in your grip... the more it slips through your fingers... or a afraid that your dream might disappear when you open your eyes or someone turns the light on... you keep climbing the walls that are put in front of you... only to fine that someone or something else has built another wall higher for you to climb... sometimes I feel like a circus clown dog doing my best to jump through the hoops... that are put up by unseen ringmasters keeping me performing for their amusement... its like digging your fingers into what you feel is solid while hanging over the edge of a cliff... only to realize your gripping hand full of sand... I keep turning corners in hope that this is the last corner... only to realize there is another corner to be turned... only to find out all the corners you turn are making you go in circles... But I'm a fighter... the problems is I don't know who or what I'm fighting... there is a saying "I've been down so long that it looks like up"... only problem is when you look down at water you see the reflection of what is up... only to still be looking down... there are many things I'm told I shouldn't do... there are many things I'm told I can't do... there are many things I won't do... I search, I reach, I fight, I look, I jump, I climb, I do what every it takes... where is this land of milk and honey... where is this place that dreams come true... where is this place where I can reach my goals... maybe if I lay down to rest a bit... close my eyes... I'll be able to see where these dreams... these goals slip away to... 

Even iPad lost weight & Slimed down.

Its faster then a speeding bullet. 
It can leap tall building in a single bound! 
It can bend steel with its bare hands (if it had hands)! 
It has a logo on it chest (not the 'S'). 
Visiter from alien planet!
Stands for... truth, justice and the GEEK way!
What is it you ask? (even if you didn't ask).
Ask any GEEK you might know or grab one off the street and ask.
This day should be made a holiday for "GEEKS".
It's the announcement date of the new iPad 2.
I've got to get one! I need one! I want one!
Today I motored over to Starbucks for the 'first cup of the day' and a cheesy bagel/cream cheese. The Chiquita Bananas where a bit to green for me (insert going green joke here). Chatted with one of the baristas who is a gadget geek like me about the announcement of the new iPad 2. After we discussed it he's going to stick with the one he has (iPad uno). Came back to flop place to do more calls on getting scripts sold to production companies. Now its time to get some eats, thinking of an avocado burger.
I'm in good company on slimming down, if iPad can do it, so can I. That's the geek running through me!

Chiquita Banana and I'm here to say--

Getting back to the update; of Old Guy Getting down to porn weight. As you can see by the picture I posted with this blog that I'm paying tribute to Chiquita Banana. Which I have been eating more of lately. I don't know if its something to do with hearing or seeing my grandmother or mother having to take potassium for either high blood pressure or just because they are getting old and their bodies might need more potassium. All I know is that I've been eating more bananas rather than ending up taking some potassium substitute. Oh and that bananas are brain food. Okay you got me, I eat bananas because I need all the brain food I can get. Plus I dig the cool Chiquita logo sticker on the banana ... for some reason I have to peel the sticker off, I can't toss the banana peel with the sticker still on it. Then I do something to drive people crazy... I stick the Chiquita sticker somewhere in plan view, to see if anyone might spot it. Just ask any of the baristas at the local Starbucks I get my cup of java from. Its gotten down to the point, that the baristas at said local Starbucks now (most of the time) de-sticker the Chiquita Bananas before selling them separately. So the next time you're in a Starbucks and you see the Chiquita Bananas being sold separately look around, you might spot a Chiquita Banana logo sticker stuck somewhere you wouldn't expect it.
Getting down to the update part; yesterday I got on my bike, now that it stop raining, pedaled my ass over to local Starbucks for that 'cup of java' & Chiquita Banana. After enjoying my cup I got back on my bike to run errands locally. Getting back to 'going green'. Then back to my flop house to make calls on scripts to Hollywood Production Companies trying to get them sold. Was wanting another cup and a bit hungry. I pedaled back over to Starbucks for a 'second cup of the day' with a cheesy bagel/cream cheese to take the edge off. Later that night it was 3 fish tacos from 'Loco Taco'. A decent Mexican fast food place. As for today I pedaled my ass over to Starbucks, once again 'going green' taking my laptop with me. Got my 'first cup of the day', Chiquita Banana and cheesy bagel/cream cheese. Kicked back with laptop watching hulu (the cape & anime) enjoying my cup of java, banana & bagel. Now for tonight I thing it might be Chinese again, small portion of noodles, chicken and pork. I'm going to try not having any egg rolls. Wish me luck on that.

The original Indigo Blue and you!

Okay about the pic... yup its the Levi Strauss logo, its been around for over a hundred years. The reason it's got the two mules on the leather tag is to show how strong they where made. And yes its true Levi did pull this stunt to show California miners that these are the jeans to buy, strong and built to last. So Levi used the two mules pulling a pair of jeans with the "XX" as the trade mark (truth in branding). Okay so what's the big deal. How many of us can say they been raised with a brand, ever sense I was a kid old enough to wear "jeans" it's been Levis. Its something that's been handed down to me, of all things by my mother, yup, mom. She was raised up in the vineyards & farmlands of Northern California, you guest it she too was raised wearing Levis. It's the one clothing item you don't mind getting hand me downs. The more fade or worn the better they are. When money was tight for her she tried getting the cheaper jeans from JCP or Husky's from Sear but those jeans didn't last, I wore through them to fast, cheaply made, so mom would put me back into Levis. I grew up wearing Levis. When I had to go get some pants because of losing weight I headed to a store that carried original 501s, shrink to fit, button fly Levis. It's been along time sense I worn 501s. Don't get me wrong I was wear Levis but the Old Fat Guy Levis, 550 relaxed fit (means-okay your fat so we'll lie about the size on the waist) or 560 loose fit (means-yeah your fat and these won't make your gut hang to much over the waistband).
There's something about when you get a pair of new 501s and the first thing you got to do is wash them before you can wear them, from stiff ridged cardboard feel to cotton soft comfortable fit. No matter how I try to write this... to me there is nothing like a pair of original 501 shrink to fit button fly Levis.
The original Indigo Blue and you!

Todays Rant.

This is what's on going to be the tombstone of America? born 1776 - died 2012. In attendants at the funeral where officials from other countries. In attendents from the family nobody--nobody cared or showed. Does anyone from facebook know or care what's going on in Wisconsin. I'm thinking no--- people think as long as it doesn't interfere with my life, i.e. get comic books sold or published, porn stars do their web cam show for money or strippers getting fans to the strip joints they're stripping at for the night, young guys in an over priced bar they really can't afford trying to score with chicks who are hustling them for free drinks (he thinking he's getting lucky-she knows he's hasn't a chance of fucking her)--Most people think "I don't live there, so who gives a shit". The only ones it effects are people who live in Wisconsin, it's their problem. Well, it's not. The only reason you get any kind of decent wage is because of unions. Companies really don't care about you--the only thing companies care about is how do I cut cost (i.e., wages) and show profit. Oh and yes this goes true for facebook & google, if they begin showing loses, they too will cut wages. Does Wal-Mart ring any bells?